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So this is it. The end of my series, and the end of our journey together. It feels as though I am a valedictorian standing in front of their graduating class, struggling to recount all the memories through unshed tears. This is where I stand right now, on a metaphorical podium in front of you all, with these paragraphs as my form of farewell.
Though everyday this year felt as though it would never end, it seems as though the year passed in a blur. As I was living in the moment it was as though the college application process a pitch-black tunnel with no end in sight. Looking back now, I can understand why all of last year’s graduates say that their senior of high school goes by the quickest, for it feels like I just wrote my first Admit/Deny post yesterday. However, despite the speed at which the time has passed, I still managed to learn a few things (the antiderivative of lnx being one of the only tidbits that I remember from class).
1. The beginning is the worst
I have come to the conclusion that it is not actually doing the task that is the most painful, but starting it. Once I open a word document and type in the first sentence, I can write my common app essay (or at least the first awful draft of it). Yet the path to opening that word document is a long and treacherous one, with countless naps and TV episodes standing between typing out the first word (I suggest starting with the title, it’ll make you feel more productive). I have spent a majority of this year wandering around my house, avoiding the things that I didn’t want to do, whether that be writing an essay or looking up a scholarship (or studying for AP exams which I am currently avoiding). However, once I moved past that stage and forced myself into beginning whatever I was evading, it wasn’t so bad. It was completely within my capabilities. Sure, I wasn’t brimming with joy, but I was able to finish everything. So to all those who are now in my footsteps, start now. It is not as awful as you think it is.
2. Your ideal is not reality
Your senior year is going to be great, but it won’t be as you pictured it. You may not get that boyfriend you wanted or go on that road trip with your friends. You may not have gotten into that university you visited when you were just out of the womb, and your scholarships may not be as loaded as you hoped. This year, and probably the rest of your life, isn’t going to be as you envision it today (that’s assuming that you have some sort of idea, which is in itself rare).
However, I also came to an epiphany as I was picking my final college (U-C-L-A! Fight! Fight! Fight!). No matter where I choose to go, I will be happy. While many often say that the college admissions process is the luck of the draw, you have complete control of how happy and proud you are with the outcome. So smile. Make a picture of the campus your phone lock screen. Go buy a sweatshirt. Start coming up with insults about your rival school. Sure, this year didn’t turn out the way I thought it would. It turned out even better.
Stress is inevitable. Though it may be hypocritical of me to say this after spending every post moaning about my stress and struggles, I have now realized that it isn’t that bad. Those large projects that seem to all be due on the same week, those college essays I left for the last minute, I was able to complete them all. At the end of the day, relaxing is crucial (unless you are already beginning to suffer senioritis, then disregard everything that I just said). Though it may feel like high school is just a stepping stone into college, it doesn’t hurt to enjoy it while you can. Because when you look back on your years here, you aren’t going to remember your GPA or that midterm you failed. What you will remember is the friends you made, the memories you created, and everything else that felt insignificant at the time.
So this is it. This is the end (though I still have another month left of school, but I’m trying to avoid thinking about that). As my time in high school comes to a close, so does my time here as an Admit/Deny blogger. And I must say, it was an honour to share my college admissions journey with all of you. While it may have been more interesting for me than you, I hope you have learned something from my process (or at least found some amusement in my blunders).
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