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Well, this is it. It is finally March, and finally college decision season. I always thought that waiting for decisions would be really hard, but I have come to realize that it is much harder the closer you get. Every day I am nervous to check my email, because I feel like any day now the decisions will pop up unexpectedly in my inbox. Checking the mailbox leads to similar feelings of paranoia, even though most of the time I find random magazines instead of fat acceptance letters or that miserably thin envelope.
I try to distract myself, as I have mentioned time and time again on this blog. Sometimes I aim to immerse myself between the poetic lines of the novel I’m reading for philosophy. Sometimes I focus my attention to the jubilant nature of my cousins running around in the yard, while I reflect on that time when I was so effortlessly carefree. Most of the time, I manage through pounding my way through treadmill workouts or lifting weights in the gym not too different than the pressures I feel when yet another relative asks me where I’m going to college next year. Or, I lie on my bed next to my cat watching Netflix. Because, you know, I need to keep my priorities in check.
School has become increasingly monotonous, but as the great existential heroes do, I must continue and make meaning by attempting to avoid the great plague known as senioritis. I signed up for the AP exams, took the National Italian Exam, and constructed an originally-designed mousetrap car for physics. Some of my classes have been more slump-friendly than others, which is to be expected. Overall, school is not as bad as I was expecting as a second semester senior.
In college news, I recently visited Baylor University to meet with students and faculty from the honors program. I loved talking to the prospective students about their college process, and I met so many people who came from entirely different backgrounds as me. I am applying for another scholarship at Baylor to continue keeping my options open. The warm weather was a major plus as well, and was a nice change from the cold weather in Massachusetts.
I am waiting for six college decisions, which will come out shortly after this blog post is published. I am obviously hoping for the best, but I know that no matter what happens I will still be proud of myself for the effort I have put in up to this point in my life. I feel grateful to know that I am 100% going to college next year and have access to higher education. I am trying my best to put everything in perspective and acknowledge how lucky I am to be making a decision about college at all. It is easy to think it is the end of the world when you are rejected from a college you really want to go to (I’ve already been there twice) but I am reminding myself that in the end I can only choose one college. If I look at every decision as helping me narrow down where I’m going, I can look forward to choosing another school rather than dwelling on where I didn’t get in.
My advice for everyone waiting for decisions is to look at colleges you have already gotten into and try to picture yourself there. Looking at what is already being offered to you is much more valuable than analyzing your chances at a school you have not heard back from yet. If you get accepted there, you can then include them in your research. If not, you can forget about them altogether.
I want to end this post by emphasizing that your self worth is not defined by what colleges you get into. At the end of the day, you have to understand that you as a person is separate from you in terms of an application. After all of the madness ceases you will still be valued by the people that matter most to you, and if they want the best for you they will be proud regardless of the decisions.
On that note, good luck everyone!
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