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Hump day Monday, hump day Tuesday, hump day Wednesday, hump day Thursday, hump day Friday.
This pattern has been cemented into my mind since the first week of senior year. Could it be the main symptom of senioritis? Perhaps, it may. However, if someone feels like crying at 6:30 AM every single day because of school, it begins to be a problem— not just another case of sernioritis, but a case of a poor, overworked teenager.
Every Tuesday night, I feel overwhelmed by the sheer amount of work that needs to be done by this week, be it tests to study for, essays to BS, pointless busywork in the form of homework, or useless group projects that are given for the mere purpose of destroying one’s definition of teamwork. This hump day mindset causes me to not care an ounce about what happens on Wednesday, so long as I get through the day. It may seem like an exaggeration, but not a week’s gone by where this doesn’t happen.
Last Tuesday night, I felt the true effects of hump day slowing poisoning me, luring me into its pool of laziness and anxiety. As I was messaging a friend at 1 AM, debating which assignment I should finally begin and which to start 5 minutes before class, I couldn’t help but notice how I was the only one freaking out. As I ran in circles like a chicken with its head cut off, my friend couldn’t believe just how overwhelmed I was acting. He didn’t understand that every Tuesday night, I go through a false (sorta) existential crisis, where I begin questioning everything from the purpose of the assignment to my purpose in life. Whenever this happens, I always say I’ll skip school the next day because I just can’t take it anymore, yet I’ve never had the guts to actually do it.
At 3 AM, I decided I wouldn’t go to school because I needed a day off. On October 30, 2013, I, Ameera Khan, intentionally skipped school. For the first time in my entire high school career, I purposely missed school with the clear intent of not going because I didn’t finish my homework or study for any of the tests on that day. Contrary to the norm, weekends are not my days off. Instead, they’re filled with me catching up on homework, writing content for various websites and having officer meetings for multiple clubs over Facebook Messenger.
And what did I do on this oh so blessed day? My day off included me watching 4 hours of back to back episodes of Keeping Up With The Kardashians and Law & Order: SVU, listening to Bankrupt! (Phoenix’s latest album) in completion, and pretending to work on my college essays (ultimately a huge fail but that’s another story for another day). Remember the easy going atmosphere Ferris Bueller felt in Ferris Bueller’s Day Off? Well, multiply that by a hundred and that’s exactly how relaxed I felt. I felt at ease and at peace with myself. For once in all of senior year, I felt less pressured to complete things because I went on my own pace in accordance to my rules. Time meant nothing to me because in that moment, time was nonexistent. The next day, I returned to school composed and with a very nonchalant mind. I was ready to throw myself back into action.
I loved my day off because it allowed me to take a step back from the world and look at myself in a very interpersonal way. During my day off, I reflected on what I’ve been doing with my life so far, in terms of college apps and high school. I asked myself: Where do I really see myself in the next 12 months? What is it that I want to be doing? What do I want to delve my passion in? Simple questions with more than complex answers.
Despite coming back to school with 2 tests, 3 packets of homework, and 2 quizzes to make up, I don’t regret missing a day at all. The lesson I learned from October 30th means more to me than any grade can offer because I know I deserved a day to push my workload aside. For the first time in my life, I chose mind over matter, my sanity over my grades and attendance. A simple day off from my frenetic life allowed me to understand that it’s perfectly okay to leave the world every once in a while. It’s okay to take some time off for yourself if it means putting your health in front of your other responsibilities. It’s okay to put yourself before others and not be considered selfish. It’s your life and your decision, so you do what’s best for you.
If you’ve never done so before, then I highly recommend taking a day off. It’s a great way to really put your life into perspective and if nothing else, it’s a day to chill at home and wake up at 10:30 AM on a Wednesday while everyone else is suffering at school.* As Ferris Bueller once said, “Life moves pretty fast. If you don’t stop and look around once in a while, you could miss it.” So don’t be afraid to have a day to yourself, so long as you keep the momentum going once you bounce back to reality.
*Protip: Don’t get too caught up in the laid back, relaxed mood that a day off can put for you. One day off is fine but don’t get reeled into doing it every month, let alone every week!
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